It's 12am and officially marks the start of another week. Tests, homework, presentations and CCA. Actually I don't mind cca, I love my cca :) I'm worried about math and physics though. Ms Wong is kinda speeding through differentiation now, and I'm so slow compared to my classmates who seem to get things immediately T_T I need time!
Physics is because I don't understand, and I also need time to read by myself and to understand.

So it all boils down to good time management :/

Woke up at one plus today, cos I slept at about 4am ytd :o did math and a little of physics then spent the rest of the time watching lunchtime w/ Smosh (y)

Dinner was quick and simple, went home and packed some stuff and tried to get more people to go to xinthesis as 204 :) hm actually most of us are going, just that they're going with others.

Maybe being cold and nonchalant about things will make me feel better? So that I don't get (emotionally) involved too much.

About 2 more months to Melizo!

A pretty satisfactory day, in terms of my stomach, my sleep and my homework.

Sleep - got about 12 hours of sleep and the weather was so good for sleeping in today. Supposed to go to school early in the morning but meeting was cancelled, such a double-edged sword.

Stomach - had Sakura buffet at SAFRA Tampines for dinner today, to celebrate my ah gong's birthday :) Played pool with Donnell and Lowell though I kinda sucked at it xD

Homework - finished notes for SS and physics, finished MCQ for physics, did Chinese :) All done! It seems less but the notes take up such a long time ~_~ But they serve a greater purpose in the long term so I don't have to do notes in the future :) And I kinda understand physics too!

Overall a nice day today though I should be sleeping right now; 3.22am :O

Tmr finish math and physics homework and revise a math differentiation of trigonometry functions, dang. What a hard chapter :/

Can't wait for limelight + xinthesis + Melizo! These few days are like days where I can relax and go out with friends :) Schedule is really packed, everyday there's something on. Either choir/duty/meeting. I know everyone's going through this right now, jiayous :)

I wish people could be more optimistic, so that their optimism would spread to ours. Instead of complaining and dampening the mood why not smile or try to cheer up. I need to be more optimistic too, and not worry too much over tests and presentations etc.

There must be a reason why you're not replying to my actions. Just that I don't want to ask you, or to interfere too much.

Monday will come soon enough and the mundane routine will start again. I dread Chinese class because: 1) it's kinda boring sometimes, 2) I'm sitting beside two scholars whose Chinese standards are obviously way higher than mine and I hate groupwork with them. It's not that they're not nice, just that their standard is so high that I don't dare to give ideas. I tried once recently and they were like sniggering :/

I'm trying to think of things to blog because my hair is still wet. That's one of the troublesome things of having long hair; takes such a long time to dry. Feeling so sleepy~

Can I reconnect with my current class and my old group of friends? I really hope so.

Losing a loved one is never simple and never easy. I sincerely hope you can get through the grief soon.

Sometimes I feel really worthless, sometimes I feel like I am a significant being. I really don't know what people think of me, whether I'm really their good friend, or just a hi-bye friend or someone they can reply on or someone they can use. Who am I to them? Will their opinions shape who I am/will become after I know what they think of me? I think it does affect me greatly. Maybe I'll even change just to suit them? That's only if I'm really desperate to fit in or something but I doubt that'll happen.

I've decided I won't sacrifice myself to please others since...quite a long time ago? But I've failed a couple of times.

Taylor Swift really puts all her emotions into her singing, which is touching :') There's this video on YouTube which shows her singing Back To December live at a concert and you could see those tears brimming in her eyes as she recalled the break up that she went through and the regrets she had for not getting it right. I could really feel for her and with her because she's so expressive. Alex Goot and Jake Coco are good at it too.

Smosh is awesome~ Though they're kinda sick but they're damn funny xD I like Lunchtime with Smosh and Mailtime with Smosh hehe, their faces are so cute. And Scott from Pentatonix too~ :> So awesome (y) I literally swoon whenever Scott is on the Sing Off advertisement on channel 5 xD

Think my hair is almost dry and it's almost 4! This marks the end of the long random post. Yep shall go sleep zzz.

Darling don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a thousand years; I'll love you for a thousand more.

Awww such a sweet song <3

Because you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you tonight :)

Aww what a nice song, I'm kind of addicted to it again after hearing Boyce Avenue + Alex Goot's cover of A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton :) The way Alex Goot sings it really makes you feel like he's singing the song to you hehe xD

Feel satisfied with myself today because I have finished revision alr! :) Only have that super tough homework left to do, which I think I will leave a lot of blanks for. I think I will sleep by 10.30 tonight and wake up at 4 :) I had almost 7 hours of sleep yesterday night yet I was falling asleep in class today -_- so weird.

I'm so screwed for chemistry and Chinese test. But I will try to make it up with my e math and a math test coming up tmr and next Monday respectively! Though the Monday test is gonna be hard :/

Hopefully my group will be able to sharpen the dance moves tmr so that Mr Yong does not have to edit it too much.

My circle of friends is shrinking I think. People don't seem willing to hang out with me, or maybe I'm the one who finds it awkward with them. I shall go to the corridor every morning to try to "revive" my friendships again!

I have procrastinated on my story~ Shall probably only start after next Friday after the important a math and physics tests! Anyways it's my personal project so yeah.

Maybe people wonder why I love PE so much xD I like it because it's the only time where I can exercise with my friends while having fun, it's like a 3 in 1! And it's probably the only time in the week where time is specially allocated for exercise. The rest of exercise I do for the rest of the week is walking and running after teachers/people. :) pe is awesome.

OKAY MATH TIME. MATH IS SO SHIOK.

If I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass us by?

Just reached home, phew. Had an awesome dinner where I talked a little bit more with my cousins :) Though it's only a little but still it makes a difference. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri is nice~ I'm a bit slow though hahaha xD

I have died everyday waiting for you.

Have this weird urge to do math at this hour and during this festive season.

Told my parents that I wanted to study social sciences and explained what was it to them, though it wasn't such a good explanation xD Nevertheless they didn't seem to object to it :) And I'm going to meridian jc? If I can xD if I get better results I might consider Victoria. If less than that then maybe nanyang/a poly. But let's see my results :)

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Let's make this year a fulfilling and happy year.

新年快乐，万事如意，事事顺利，全家安平！

Just finished wrapping presents for Nerissa and Jasper! Hope that they'll like it and that it will fit them. Hm I bought shirts for them; a domo girl shirt for Nerissa and a black and white camera graphic tee for Jasper :) if it's me I will like it hahaha xD

I was just thinking about how the world would be if different sites represented different people. Like for twitter, it'd probably be those hyperactive people who are always up to date. Then for bloggers maybe they'll be the quieter kind, depends on the blogger actually. Then facebook, it's just a mix of people, from perverts to popular people to whatever kind of people you can find in this world. I guess this is just stereotyping which is unfair.

But this is just a random thought.

I'm so impatient for my hair to grow longer so that I can trim the split ends away xO They make my ponytail look like a bush xD

Drifter. This word has been drifting about in my mind. Is it better to be a drifter or to settle down with a group of friends? I guess I'm a drifter. In secondary one I was with Joey, wanqi etc. Then in secondary two I was with peixuan's group. Then secondary three and four with Claire Joyce zaiqin tosy/choir comm.

I mean other than these few people, I don't really have any other close friends. Sure I may have friends but they're just hi-bye friends, or maybe it has even become awkward now. Since this is my last year in school, I also hope to reconcile with people.

But some really 没救了, our friendship has reached the end to the point of no return. Like a car driving off a cliff. But I'm thankful for the memories while they lasted :)

Can't wait for reunion dinner later! Abalone *_* Had my first slice of abalone yesterday during lunch, when my mom put it raw into my noodles, yum. Did you know that the best way to eat abalone is to eat it raw? :)

Can't believe my family is kind of happy now, just about 5 months ago my mom was in a menopausal mood (I guess) and was always throwing tantrums and giving a bad attitude. Grateful for the family I have today :)

Positivity and negativity is so infectious, whether you're happy or not largely depends on the people you hang out with. So must infect people with happiness :)

These few posts have been pretty positive and I think it's due to the festive mood~ When school starts it might be a different story :O

Differentiation time!



Kiss and ride~

I won't give up is such a lovely song~